Tonight, we are young.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

but now i see

My favourite romance film for this year. I find their movie quotes very very inspiring.

iridescent

My poly graduation day !! <3

Best 3 years of education indeed. I've met the most awesome course & class mates !!

We slogged 3 years of studies, hardwork, assignements and projects and endless essays and we finally made it to today.

The weather was horrible. That will explain why the pictures got progressively unglam down this post.

We were all sweating and running around doing last minute stuff..

Thanks Raerae for the pretty origami flower <3<3<3

My matric card which i refused to return back to the polytechnic.

I simply insisted that I had lost mine hahahaha I'm very sentimental, what can I say?

There, my fat and ugly face from secondary school oh God...

Queuing to register for the ceremony -___- everyone was feeling warm and sticky!!

In our graduation robes ;D

Mommy & daddy!!! They were like insanely proud of me like I won some Nobel Award lol. Parents' love <3

FRANCIS!! Our very first Careperson who although resigned & went to RP, still kept in constant contact with us as if we were still his form class.

Daddy bought me the graduation teddy, 2 plaques & 2 huge ass albums of the graduation photos. LOLOL. Think my parents were more excited than I was that day. too cute!

& my gorgeous bbygirl <3 We became BFFs after we went into the same poly and same course. LOVE HER SO MUCHHHHHHH

You wonderful people have changed my life in so many different ways. I can't imagine having gone through 3 years of my polytechnic education without y'all. In a few months' time, we'll all be going on separate paths to different schools in different countries.. I can only pray really hard that the classmates I meet will be half as awesome as you guys ever were. It was my blessing to have met every single one of you awesome people & I wouldn't have wanted to experience these 3 years any differently. Happy Graduation Day <3

Love, Michelle Ho

Friday, May 25, 2012

Street lights

Whilst napping this afternoon, I had a rather unpleasant dream about guys.. Couldn't really remember the contents but it left me feeling really uncomfortable and pretty upset the rest of the day, pretty much like a nasty aftertaste. Thought I might have a problem sleeping, but oddly I passed out at 2plus despite having slept the whole day. Weird indeed. But I digress. I would like to thank a special someone who has been exceptionally patient & sweet to me & being super supportive and protective of me. He offered to read a bed time story just to help me get to bed. I know it sounds lame & childish, but that isn't the point. The point is knowing that I have someone out there willing to do the silliest things for me just to make me feel better, this feeling is more than amazing.

My life was just supposed to seem like one sad tragedy, but it's people like these that make the lowest points in life worth going through. Thank you..You are truly an amazing person :)

Thursday, May 24, 2012

panic

Pretty brief summation of my family trip to HK & TW ..

Think I'm aging pretty fast .. can't even handle super late nights any more. & I'm always feeling so lethargic even during the day. le sigh. Probably a hint for me to stop partying & drinking -___-

THE DAYS DRAW NEARER. Soon I'll be flying off to Melbourne & leaving my old life here behind.. & I'm so very sorry to those that I've been neglecting.... I wanna catch up with you guys before I fly..

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

le sigh

Some memories were made to be forgotten.

I'm in such a lazy moooooooood. Feel so lazy to get my ass up & get dressed and cleaned up for the Porsche car launch.. but I have to. hahahaha I <3 cars sosososososo muchhhh ~~~ I want to go, fangirl & snap zillions of pictures and be silly about it :D

Monday, May 21, 2012

alternate universe

Melbourne- it's drawing closer every single day. I'll miss everyone so terribly when I'm over there, but I can't wait. I simply can't. I love my life here, yet I desire to explore different experiences that can't be found here, in Singapore. I want to handle my own life without being under the shelter of my parents all the time. I want to be able to miss my family and friends so much that when I return, I'll treasure every moment I'm going to spend with them. Most importantly, I need some alone time. I need time out from my life, from the dramatics, from the heartbreaks, from the crazily paced society here. I want to be able to roam about exploring the city no matter how big or small is, without relying on the presence of someone else to be there when I do it. I'm too dependent. On friends, on family & on my partner. I've always thought myself to be independent, but ultimately I realized, I wasn't. I've always needed someone to be there for me physically or mentally. & I hate being reliant. Because no one is going to be there for you 100%, so when he/she/they leave, you crumble because you relied too heavily on the support of others, you forgot how to stand alone. I am learning to be alone. To be my one and only support that will never forsake me.

Labels, expectations, opinions.. all these shape you into someone you're not. I'm not going to let anyone's warped perception of me change who I want to be and who I am. People place labels and talk about you because they're superficial, they have little self-worth and they are more flawed than the things they make you out to be. So fuck them :) Because they can bitch about it all day, but words don't maketh who you are. Actions do. All these actualization in a day. Imagine what I could do with 3 years. Going to become Gandhi and live in the mountains maybe hurhur.

turning tables

Considering reviving my Tumblr cos my blog's been filled with so many Tumblr mateirals.. mm.

One of the lies most commonly told next to "I'll always love you" & "I will never leave you";

I've been desensitized to such bullshit.

I am happy now. I truly am. Despite all these emo Tumblr gifs you see, I appreciate them, but they do not express my current state of mind and thoughts. Nothing here in this space truly does.